[ What do you think you would have done if I had? Alhaitham asks, and Kaveh's lips part in answer only to find that he has none, because... because he doesn't know what he would have done. It was hard enough to believe the scribe's words even when they came soft and genuine in the wake of his own; what if they'd been spoken first, what then? Would he have believed?
As usual, the other man knows him better than he knows himself. He sighs, shoulders sinking slightly. ]
..Yeah. You're... I probably would have.
[ And to think that Xie Lian believed that Alhaitham would be even more unprepared than Kaveh— he's been waiting for this—
The thought makes the blonde's eyes close in brief pain, and he bites his lower lip. ]
There's something I need to tell you. I was trying to sort out my feelings, so... [ He takes a short, shaky breath. ] I asked Xie Lian to use his powers to look like you. I needed to see if I was just mixing physical attraction up with something real. [ A last ditch effort, in reality, trying to run away from what he knew was true. ] He did, but in the end I couldn't go through with it, because he wasn't really you.
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Date: 2024-04-21 01:16 am (UTC)As usual, the other man knows him better than he knows himself. He sighs, shoulders sinking slightly. ]
..Yeah. You're... I probably would have.
[ And to think that Xie Lian believed that Alhaitham would be even more unprepared than Kaveh— he's been waiting for this—
The thought makes the blonde's eyes close in brief pain, and he bites his lower lip. ]
There's something I need to tell you. I was trying to sort out my feelings, so... [ He takes a short, shaky breath. ] I asked Xie Lian to use his powers to look like you. I needed to see if I was just mixing physical attraction up with something real. [ A last ditch effort, in reality, trying to run away from what he knew was true. ] He did, but in the end I couldn't go through with it, because he wasn't really you.